Merry Happy Jolly Christmas!

Today my new camera came in! I did not have time to mess with the software on the computer tonight, but I will try to do that this weekend, so I can start sharing my new pictures. I really like it so far. I was trying to save all my points earned in promotions at State Farm to get a really, really awesome camera, but alas... I dropped and broke the Kodak, so I had to settle for the points that I had accumulated this year. It would have taken two more years to get the one I was looking at. However I am so happy to tell you that I ended up with a much better camera than we had!!! Woo hoo! I am so excited!!! Will add pix to this post later. Must go to bed now. Hugs to all one or two of you!

Blue Christmas

I apologize in advance, this is not an upbeat post today, but this is where I am.

So have you ever heard the new song by Toby Keith that he wrote for his good friend and Tulsan Waymon Tisdale? I don't know the name of it, but it is a tear jerker, and a nice celebration of friendship. Today I was listening to the words on the way home from work and thinking yet again about how much I miss my foster mom, Bobby. I got started sniffleing and before I knew it the tears were rolling. She has been gone now for about 15 months and I have a terrible awful confession to make. I have not been back to their house since the funeral. I can barely talk to my dad on the phone. A few times I talked to him, I made him cry. Every time I think about her, I just get so sad... FOR ME! What a selfish thing! I was wondering why that is. I did not spend much time with her for the last 20 years. Called her rarely, usually just when I needed something. That finally hit home. I think I feel guilty for failing her, for not being successful (the words EPIC FAIL come to my mind). She was good at everything, and I just feel so bad that I am not what I should be in so many ways.

So this next year, I will try harder to be better. A better Christian, a better wife, mother, sister, aunt, niece, friend. You get it. Better. In honor of a great example...

The Season!

Well it has arrived. The special time of year when everyone is racing around, distracted, buying and making that perfect gift. We get pretty distracted by that and seem to forget that the perfect gift was delivered to us in a tiny sweet package over 2000 years ago, in Bethlehem. He came here, a pretty cruddy place from a perfect place. Here, with rude, selfish, ungrateful people like me, instead of his father and angels and beauty beyond measure. He came here willingly and faced a painful life and a horrible death for us.

Give it up, you can't find, buy or make the perfect gift. It already happened, it has been done. Don't forget to share that message and take a few moments to be thankful for the best gift you have ever been given. Thank God for that gift!