I am so glad to be back on the treadmill. As much as I hate exercise, I feel so much better about myself when I am exercising! It makes no sense because I am no thinner today than I was on Sunday, but for some reason I feel skinnier! And I feel sore too. Maybe that is it. I hurt every time I stand up, sit down, or walk around the room. The pain reminds me that I feel it because I earned it on the treadmill. I like that feeling. Sometimes pain is good. I am not setting any records for time, but I am increasing my speed by .1 each night, so in a few weeks, I will be right back where I was 6 weeks ago. Hopefully next week I can resume my weight lifting, too.
Projects... I want to start a bunch of them. I am currently working on a little camera bag for Rhonda's mother in law. I need to wrap it up since it is a birthday gift, and her bday is in February! Yikes! I want to make some more dish cloths. It has been a while since I knitted those. My aunt wants me to make a baby afghan for her great grandson. But she has to buy more yarn, and some circular needles. I also want to make a headband ear warmer thingy. My friend Adriene has one. I found a pattern. I tried to start one, but it rejected me. :o( I will keep trying. It will not defeat me!
Have a great day!
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Monday, January 24, 2011
Just a Short Note
Tonight I am going back to the gym for the first time since my surgery. I have not been in 6 weeks! Yikes! I have to go back, I am feeling like I have lost my weight loss momentum. I suspect I have gained some of my 22 pounds back. Panic!
Not sure how this will work. I am not used to be physically limited. I like to compete with myself and get a better "time" on the treadmill. I guess I just need to set the pace tonight. A modest pace. Then work at getting better every night.
I hope you are all having a wonderful day! I will try to update tomorrow about how this went.
Not sure how this will work. I am not used to be physically limited. I like to compete with myself and get a better "time" on the treadmill. I guess I just need to set the pace tonight. A modest pace. Then work at getting better every night.
I hope you are all having a wonderful day! I will try to update tomorrow about how this went.
Friday, January 21, 2011
Hiding
My sister posted recently on her blog ("Working on it" See sidebar for link) a remark about how people hide behind a smile. I have to admit that I do that a lot. Does everyone? Are we lying with our smiles? I have been taught to put a good foot forward. I have been told that a smile makes you prettier. Keep a stiff upper lip (what the heck does that mean?). Buck up. Suck it up. So I do. I know I have a lot to hide, but never thought much that other people were doing the same. What is going on behind your smile? Are all those smiles hiding pain and secrets like mine does?
So what is better? Do we let our expressions mirror our feelings? That would not be good either. I can't walk around and display my every feeling on my face. That would not be a good thing. It would wear everyone out, and I would look like a train wreck! But I also want to be honest. I don't like to think that my smile is a lie!
I have arrived at this conclusion after a few days of mulling it around in the space between my ears. I have to start the day with a smile. I have to buck up. The smile is not so much about my circumstance, or my feelings. It is about my joy. Not happiness, joy. I have joy regardless of my circumstance. So my smile is not a lie. It is a choice. I chose to smile regardless of my circumstance. If you dig a little deeper, there is a lot more going on, of course, than what the smile might tell you. And maybe if we are good enough friends, I can share some of it with you. I chose to smile because I have joy in my heart from the peace my Savior has provided. I MIGHT have a lot of embarrasing problems that I keep a secret, well, cuz they are ridiculous and embarrasing! But I know that my problems are here and now. God is more than big enough to fix them. Maybe He will chose to fix them, or maybe I will just have to live with them. But I have a reward waiting. Bigger and better than my problems. So I will smile. I will be joyful.
So what is better? Do we let our expressions mirror our feelings? That would not be good either. I can't walk around and display my every feeling on my face. That would not be a good thing. It would wear everyone out, and I would look like a train wreck! But I also want to be honest. I don't like to think that my smile is a lie!
I have arrived at this conclusion after a few days of mulling it around in the space between my ears. I have to start the day with a smile. I have to buck up. The smile is not so much about my circumstance, or my feelings. It is about my joy. Not happiness, joy. I have joy regardless of my circumstance. So my smile is not a lie. It is a choice. I chose to smile regardless of my circumstance. If you dig a little deeper, there is a lot more going on, of course, than what the smile might tell you. And maybe if we are good enough friends, I can share some of it with you. I chose to smile because I have joy in my heart from the peace my Savior has provided. I MIGHT have a lot of embarrasing problems that I keep a secret, well, cuz they are ridiculous and embarrasing! But I know that my problems are here and now. God is more than big enough to fix them. Maybe He will chose to fix them, or maybe I will just have to live with them. But I have a reward waiting. Bigger and better than my problems. So I will smile. I will be joyful.
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Hello New Year!
I am so glad you are here, 2011! The old one was REALLY old! I hope you will be nicer to me than 2010 was, too. I guess it was mostly my fault, but that year was a real pain! I plan to be good, work hard, be diligent, worship faithfully and fully, and try to be the person God wants me to be. I have a picture of her, in my mind. I will focus on that snapshot and try to become her. She is smart, focused and tidy. She balances her checkbook, she saves money, she serves her God and her family and friends. She goes to the gym and work out 4 times a week. I hope you (2011) like this girl as much as I do. Be kind to her, she will need your assistance!
Borrowing Aunt Mary's laptop today to visit the cyber world. I needed a fix! Will probably go back to work one week from tomorrow, or maybe on Tuesday instead of Monday. I missed my blog!
Borrowing Aunt Mary's laptop today to visit the cyber world. I needed a fix! Will probably go back to work one week from tomorrow, or maybe on Tuesday instead of Monday. I missed my blog!
Monday, December 20, 2010
I Was Right!
Friday was a fun night. I had so much fun with my sister and brother-in-law. They are awesome people. My sister treated me to her delicious spaghetti. I love, love, love her spaghetti. Heaven! We wrapped gifts and made them beautiful. So much fun. She showed me all the clothes they had purchased for her adorable grand baby. He is one lucky little man! He is too little to know it, too. But I am sure he will figure out just how special his grandparents are in the next several years. I also got to visit with my favorite German Shephard, Shyanne (Cheyenne?? how the heck do you spell it??) She is the smartest dog ever, and almost the cutest.
Today is my last day at work, before the surgery. It feels like every hour is taking 4 hours to pass. This is not a busy time of year in an insurance agency. So I am trying to answer every call since I won't be doing any work for the next 4 weeks. But at the same time, there is not much sense in starting any "projects". All in all, it is an odd day to be working.
My worry and stress are still there lurking, but I am dealing with it as it arrives. Trying not to let it overwhelm me. Remembering that God is in control, and that he can handle these small things, and any big issues that come up. Remembering that He is LARGE and IN CHARGE. Rememebering that I am small and submissive. God is good.
I finished 4 projects this weekend. That is a load off my mind, but I have so many more projects to work on, books to read and relaxing to do for the 4 weeks, that it is almost exciting to think about it! Ha! Who ever looked forward to a hysterectomy?
Maybe I will make a little journal to write down my thoughts and feelings and observations to share with you after the big event. I won't be able to post for a month, so I will keep track and then read them after and decide if there was anything worth sharing. Maybe some brilliant thought or observation will emerge. I will miss this blogging thing for some reason. I am not sure why. But rambling about my thoughts and feelings and activities is cathartic or something important, because I keep doing it!
So merry Christmas, and happy New Year to all 3 or 4 of you that read this regularly, and to any other random individual that stumbles across this blog. God bless you all!
Today is my last day at work, before the surgery. It feels like every hour is taking 4 hours to pass. This is not a busy time of year in an insurance agency. So I am trying to answer every call since I won't be doing any work for the next 4 weeks. But at the same time, there is not much sense in starting any "projects". All in all, it is an odd day to be working.
My worry and stress are still there lurking, but I am dealing with it as it arrives. Trying not to let it overwhelm me. Remembering that God is in control, and that he can handle these small things, and any big issues that come up. Remembering that He is LARGE and IN CHARGE. Rememebering that I am small and submissive. God is good.
I finished 4 projects this weekend. That is a load off my mind, but I have so many more projects to work on, books to read and relaxing to do for the 4 weeks, that it is almost exciting to think about it! Ha! Who ever looked forward to a hysterectomy?
Maybe I will make a little journal to write down my thoughts and feelings and observations to share with you after the big event. I won't be able to post for a month, so I will keep track and then read them after and decide if there was anything worth sharing. Maybe some brilliant thought or observation will emerge. I will miss this blogging thing for some reason. I am not sure why. But rambling about my thoughts and feelings and activities is cathartic or something important, because I keep doing it!
So merry Christmas, and happy New Year to all 3 or 4 of you that read this regularly, and to any other random individual that stumbles across this blog. God bless you all!
Friday, December 17, 2010
Fun Night!
Tonight I am going to hang out with my sister at her house. Why don't we do that more, Deb? I guess life just keeps us busy and we forget to spend time together. Not good.
She just had surgery on her neck and has a ton of gifts to wrap since she can't really move her head and neck around much. So I am going to help her wrap her Christmas gifts. Did you know that I LOVE to wrap gifts? I LOVE IT!! I use way too much tape and I care deeply about each gift looks. That is a part of your gift after all... the wrapping needs to be beautiful!
I hope you get to have some fun wrapping, and bonding with your sister. This will be my first wrapping of the year. I have not wrapped even ONE gift this year! Gasp! It is already 12/17!! I need to wrap at least one before I go to Owasso tonight! Looking forward to this evening if you cant tell. I love my sister a lot and we don't get to spend much time together. Usually when we see each other there are 15 other family members around. She is a wonderful person, with a beautiful heart. Spending time with her is a GIFT!
Enjoy your weekend. Monday will be my last day at work before surgery and I don't know if I will have time to post. Since the computer is fried at home, I won't be able to post for quite a while. I'll miss you blog-world!
She just had surgery on her neck and has a ton of gifts to wrap since she can't really move her head and neck around much. So I am going to help her wrap her Christmas gifts. Did you know that I LOVE to wrap gifts? I LOVE IT!! I use way too much tape and I care deeply about each gift looks. That is a part of your gift after all... the wrapping needs to be beautiful!
I hope you get to have some fun wrapping, and bonding with your sister. This will be my first wrapping of the year. I have not wrapped even ONE gift this year! Gasp! It is already 12/17!! I need to wrap at least one before I go to Owasso tonight! Looking forward to this evening if you cant tell. I love my sister a lot and we don't get to spend much time together. Usually when we see each other there are 15 other family members around. She is a wonderful person, with a beautiful heart. Spending time with her is a GIFT!
Enjoy your weekend. Monday will be my last day at work before surgery and I don't know if I will have time to post. Since the computer is fried at home, I won't be able to post for quite a while. I'll miss you blog-world!
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Frito Pie
Here is a bit of random-ness for you. Frito Chili pie for dinner tonight at church. Come join us for yummy meal and a little heartburn on the side. 29th & Yale Church of Christ in Tulsa, OK.
Also, our class subject is: Opening a Can of Worms. I wonder what worm we will examine tonight? We turned in Bible questions and each question will be addressed this quarter in class. Last week's question was a bit deep for me. I submitted 3 questions. I think I already know 2 of the answers, but one of them is a very good question.
Anyway, join us if you can, or if you want to. There is a serious TON of chili.
Also, our class subject is: Opening a Can of Worms. I wonder what worm we will examine tonight? We turned in Bible questions and each question will be addressed this quarter in class. Last week's question was a bit deep for me. I submitted 3 questions. I think I already know 2 of the answers, but one of them is a very good question.
Anyway, join us if you can, or if you want to. There is a serious TON of chili.
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